I am getting a little better now at getting back in the groove of day to day living. I have been able to keep the house in order and maintain a grip on those daily responsibilities like dishes, laundry and such. I have even begun to cook again. I know, that seems like a given but the loss and the grief have taken me down at times to a point where I did not want to get up.
I still have hopes of putting out a substantial garden this year. Unfortunately I have not started my seedlings and it's likely I will be purchasing my tomato and pepper plants this year instead of growing my own. I would not attempt a large garden for myself this year but my daughter and grandaughter will be here to help. Arrangements have been made and it appears my daughter, SIL and grandaughter will be moving in sometime within the next several months. Hard times for everyone indicate this is the best choice with the most benefits for everyone concerned. It will be an adjustment to say the least but not an impossible one. I have a lot of work to do in preparation for them. It feels a bit overwhelming, but no more so I suppose than the preparations they are making to leave their world behind and join mine. All I can do is my best and take it one day at a time. That and remeber to breathe. :)
You're doing what you need to do. That's important. The garden will be a good place to be this year. And a houseful of women--what better support can there be? Many changes, all coming quickly for you, but I think you are moving in the right direction and I have this feeling that you will accomplish something amazing together.
ReplyDeleteSusana- thank you for your positive input. :) Yes, a lot of changes in a short span of time...a little overwhelming to say the least. I must trust that everything is in order and as it should be else I might go insane, lol! Thank goodness my sense of humor is still intact.
ReplyDeleteSounds like your slowly healing a little step at a time...we are still praying for you! God hears all prayers and we've prayed for a big Godly hug!
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I think a garden sounds just about like the perfect project right now. You'll have a good time, and you'll have your daughter and grandaughter to help. It will be nice for you all to have a project together.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to read that you've taken some small steps in healing...that's good. It will bring joy to your home having a child there...that's a good thing.
ReplyDeleteDoing the necessities is not always easy but you are doing what needs to be done.Prayers and thought do not stop just because you may be gaining a little bit each day or week. Remember your children had to creep before they could walk . Gardening is always a positive way to give yourself some alone time which you will need. Thank God for your child and granddaughter as you will need each other .Hopefully sometime as you feel up to gaining new friends I would love to hear from you. Lilly
ReplyDeleteRachel - I can't say how much your prayers and hugs mean. Thank you so much.
ReplyDeletePhil - Yes, a garden is good therapy. My heart is just not in starting the plants from seed this year but I will garden none the less.
Dianne - I do look forward to my granddaughters presence here especially. She is a joy in my life.
Lilly - I am slowly working my way back into a daily routine. You're so right, they haven't been easy. Little steps but they will lead to more. I am finally beginning to cook a little more and in general do a little more as the days pass. Thank you for being a friend.
I'm sure you will find the most healing spending time with your granddaughter and teaching her everything you and Coop have learning together gardening. May God continue to bless you and your family.
ReplyDeleteDear Earth Heart,
ReplyDeleteApparently my condolences never reached you. I suppose they are out in cyber space somewhere. Just want you to know I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I'm thinking that a garden would be a good project this summer and help you through the grieving process. One small step at a time...you'll make it...I just know you will! With some of your family around you this summer I think it will help you and them a lot. Good Luck!
Hugs, Aunt Bea
That will be nice to have your family with you. I am glad to see you will still put in your garden and that will be a good experience for your grandaughter. Glad to here things are working out for you despite the hard times!
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Dear Earth Heart,
ReplyDeleteI know this Holiday Weekend will be especially hard for you to cope with but you will survive and be a better person for understanding the true meaning of Easter. Our prayers are with you on this special weekend, Sincerely,Lilly
Im sorry to hear of your loss. I have been offline much of the last month. Im so glad you have a support system in your family. We will keep you in our prayers. Thank goodness Spring is here. I always feel better when the sun shines and warmer days begin.
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A garden sounds like the right project. Wishing you luck with the changes.
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