Monday, August 17, 2009

a new chapter in my life

It's been more than three months since I last posted here. To say a lot has changed is an understatement. My entire life shifted when Coop passed away unexpectedly. And now, life is shifting again, but in a very positive direction. I have met someone special and over the course of the last several months have established a wonderful relationship with said person. And believe me, I have been judged and applauded for allowing love into my life so soon after Coop's demise. But, if you remember my words here, you'll recall I mentioned what I knew to be true, that I had a heart full of love to give and at some point in time I wished to establish a relationship again with someone deserving of that love. Well, to my surprise that has happened and I most definitely wished to share my good news with you.

Mark is a gentle man, well seasoned in the heartache that life often brings and as such is the most caring, compassionate and ego-less man I have ever met. He is a retired college English instructor and poet. It seems as if we were made for one another. We share so many idiosyncrasies and have such similar likes and dislikes that it feels as if we have known one another forever. Our relationship is one of total comfort.

As I mentioned, I have been judged and applauded for entering into a relationship so soon. Those who have judged obviously do not know my heart nor the amount of grief I've worked through and experienced. They do not know the emptiness I have felt, nor can they understand the depth of soul searching I have gone through. On the other hand, those who applaud my new found relationship understand that life can and does go on and living and loving is the essence of it. To those who judge I can only say this, I hope you never have to go through such a loss and such grief, but if you do then perhaps you will come to understand. To those who stand by me with happiness and encouragement I say, thank you for honest and loving support.

In the end all I can do is be grateful. I was so very blessed by the love I had known with Coop which I will carry with me and treasure forever. As both Mark and I know, Coop will always be a part of us and our life together. Now, to know the gift of love again is such a miracle to me. I count myself a most blessed person for knowing and experiencing great love and devotion twice in one lifetime, something so special that some may never know at all. That is a miracle.

The past week was a celebration of my 54th birthday. Mark came to spend the week with me and make it special, which he did and it was.


just two old and very happy hippies

If anyone is still reading this blog, I appreciate it and will continue to share as the latest chapter of my life unfolds. Over the next couple of months my life will be shifting in other ways as well.

22 comments:

  1. Congratulations on finding a special someone!
    I hope you have many long years of happiness.

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  2. Be at peace with your life. Love is a good thing.

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  3. Love is a miracle in many ways that some people never get to experience which is sad in its own right as they honestly feel that they are happy. Enhoy your new new life and I know you can be happy again, maybe not in the same way but liffe has many different paths in which to follow, lilly

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  4. I've been reading your blog for almost a year now and never commented.

    I have enjoyed your honestly you have with life and love. You are in touch with your heart and soul. You are extremely blessed to be able to love! I applaud you.

    As Dr. Seuss said:
    Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

    Lady J

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  5. Thank you all for such positive and encouraging comments. It means so much. Bless you.

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  6. I think your finding a new relationship in such a short time indicates just how special the first one was, you wanted to feel that special love again.

    best wishes to you and Mark!

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  7. anonymous- you have hit the nail on the head and put it to words simple and true. I could not imagine life without that feeling. Thank you.

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  8. I am so glad to see that you are back--and have found happiness again. What others think of what we do does not matter. What matters is what you think of what you do. I am so happy for you. I read and cried with you after Coop left. Now I can rejoice. Life is good.

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  9. Good for you. So happy to hear you have someone special. It is no life to live lonely and alone. Well written! Hugs, Kim

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  10. I'm so touched my your website i just found you tonight,im so sorry for your loss,but happy you have found someone so special,i love what you stand for,i think if our world today felt more like you and me :) it would be a better place,sending my love and blessings to you,cilla

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  11. Again I must say thank you from the heart for taking the time to comment and offer such positive reinforcement. You are all so wonderful.

    cilla - Welcome and thank you, thank you, thank you for stopping by and offering your thoughts and extending your blessings as well.

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  12. Oh, I'm so delighted love and comfort continue for you! I never question the good things when they come...life is too short to, and those who truly love us are happy when it does. (((( Hugs! sharing in your happiness))))))

    Robbyn/thebackforty

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  13. To love again is such a blessing and I wish you both so much happiness!

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  14. Good to see you back and are able to enter into a relationship that you are both happy and comfortable with/ As I previously said love comes in many ways and directons. You will always know what is right and what is the best thing for you as no one else can decide for you. Best of luck in your new life. Enjoy!! Lilly

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  15. As sorry as i am for what you have lost, i am as happy for what you have finally found.

    Best of luck to you

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  16. I am so happy to hear you have found another soul mate. You are fortunate for what you had, and what you've found.

    Life does go on, and my heart is lighter knowing that you, such a wonderful and deserving person, have found someone to share your time with.

    God Bless!

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  17. You're lucky to find love once, blessed to find it twice...all the best!

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  18. I agree wholeheartedly with the many who see this as a true blessing. To love once in life is a gift. To find it a second time around, so sure, so real, is nothing short of miraculous. All the best. Those who love you are happy just to see you happy, to know you have joy in your life once more.

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  19. I had computer problems and lost track of your site but found you again. What wonderful news!
    People look at me as if I'm a nut, but I've always said that I want Old Man to find someone as soon as possible if I should cross over. As long as it's someone that loves him and is good to him, I wouldn't care if it was the next month. I don't want him feeling lost and lonely without comfort.

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  20. Love you all so much for your expressing your thoughts and wishing me well. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

    Sallie

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  21. Congratulation, so happy to hear that you have very special someone, i wish if i getting married someday, i'll be married with the right person, just like you and being happy people till old :) i'm so touching reading your blog :)

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  22. Good Stuff.Thank u for sharing this.

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